Have you ever wished you could just ‘take a break’!!?? I guess most people have, most of the time, but commitments to work, jobs and all that, somehow prevents them (except at prescribed holidays, of course).
Well, I often wish the same thing – albeit under slightly different circumstances. I mean, I am not committed to a ‘nine to five’ job, or even have family to worry about (well, maybe that’s not so applicable anymore!); but I am sure as hell bound by certain commitments which I can’t just abandon like that!
I am talking about my writing work, if you had not already guessed. For I am not just writing material ‘at random’ – and when I please – people are actually waiting for it! Well that (the latter) is the ‘up-side’ of it; the ‘downside’ is actually having to write it all. It takes a LOT of work, believe me, and maybe after Volume 2 of my autobiography, I really will ‘take a break’! Maybe its just the nature of the 2nd Volume which has bought this on . . . having to check – and re-check – events of some 35 years ago, which all have to be accurate and be verified. That should not be so greater task, some might say. But believe me, looking back at some of the material – and having to re-read them – does not really have a ‘soothing effect’ on the mind.
In fact, when I read back on some of it, it is almost incredulous to recall some of the lies that were being said – and spread – about me back in 1973/74/75 – by people desperately trying to change ‘history in the making’ even then! Even funnier’ is when some people still try and ‘change history’ today when they weren’t even born at the time so could not know what really happened! I was thinking about this earlier, and it is almost ‘funny’, in a funny sort of way!
But people are actually capable of trying to change the past, if it happens to suit their particular mode of thinking in the present. A few of these, it seems, have sought ‘solace’ in religion. The ultimate form of ‘escapism’ for some who just can’t seem to face actual facts. They pray to God on an assumption that past lies must be true just because it says so in some sensational newspaper or the other. Yet they seem to forget that God is All Knowing, and would certainly be aware of all petty human interpretations or invoked motivations.
So, I really Do need to ‘take a break’ But in reality, this can’t be until I finish the next book. Then, and only then’ will I be able to think about taking a break from all the writing. In the meantime, I will just continue to get it finished (so don’t worry anyone!).
Anyway, I’m taking a short break tonight as my mind has been slightly ‘over-filled’ with all this legal material. Not only that, but I do need to be up quite early tomorrow!
For the moment,